Private Window 1984: Confessions of a Depressed Soldier - by Seamus Phan (book cover)

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Private Window 1984: Confessions of a Depressed Soldier

A collection of short pieces by Seamus Phan, circa 1984

What is this book about?

First off, you have to keep an open mind. The first thing you might want to do is to download the preview copy below to get a feel of what’s in the book. From the table of contents on this page, you can also get a feel of the topics in this book. The book is written in simple, short pieces, rather than long discourses. It is highly personal, and obviouslyl opinionated. If you hate opinions and can only take fact, get another book. If you are looking for classic literary work, this book is not for you. But if you like to explore the psyche of someone (whoever), then this book might be worth a minute of your time.

Why “private window 1984”? Seamus served as private first class (otherwise known as “lance corporal” in British terms) during his national service in the army. The book is like a window into his heart.

Here are the details of the book:

Written during the economic depression, Seamus Phan, then a national service soldier stepping into the working world for the first time, having been a junior college drop-out at that time. Seamus wrote on love, sadness, disappointment, and feelings. The Seamus in 1984 is very different from today at 2004, as he has braved through that depressing days of a soldier and thereafter the worst economic depression in Asia. He went on to evangelize digital publishing and pioneer the use of commercial Internet in the small island in Asia, and ultimately, went on to founding several knowledge ventures and acquired his post-graduate degrees along the way, even though he was a complete failure in the 1980s.

Printed: 55 pages, 6.0 x 9.0 in. (Trade Paperback), perfect-bound, black and white interior
ISBN: 1-4116-1433-X
License: Standard Copyright License
Copyright Year: © 1984
Language: English

Table of contents

  • The depression before the calm
  • The eternal battle
  • Floating thoughts
  • Life
  • Angel
  • Sanctuary for a shattered heart
  • Frozen solitude
  • Sad episode
  • Loner in the night
  • Beating heart
  • A dream of fantasy?
  • Dancing
  • Reaching out to her
  • Tired heart
  • Slipping days
  • God
  • Latent dream
  • Jeremiad
  • Lady, smile
  • What should I say?
  • Chained seagull
  • Going
  • Come back
  • Heart in the night
  • Billet Doux this is not
  • Beauty in the eyes of a mediocre artist
  • Appreciation
  • Know me
  • Lies they are not
  • Never lost
  • Mother sea
  • Light my way
  • Plea
  • Chrysalis
  • Cremation
  • Nothing
  • Fire in winter time
  • Love
  • Must love go?
  • Way
  • A song of the sea
  • Stay by me
  • Only you
  • Bringer of love
  • Ten times an angel
  • You are my swan